Disappointment And Confusion

I was pretty disappointed with my salary right now. I know i have no rights to complain and i know that i should be grateful enough that i have a stable job right now but I don’t think I am being compensated properly or perhaps I am just expecting too much from my industry or maybe I was just so exhausted in my field in a point that i am blaming everything even the salary that i am getting.  Well, you can’t blame me , as the breadwinner, i am taking all the responsibility at home, i shoulder almost everything and all the sort of expenses that we have and even i have this home-based “freelancing job” as a side line , i still don’t feel that I am doing good enough to help my family. Am I expecting too much? Am I too ambitious to dream of something way far from where we are now? Am I doing good enough or should I push myself much harder to meet those goals? Am I on the right field or should I look for a new one? Should I start my own business or what? These are the questions I have right now, hanging and looking for certain answers. I’m quite confused right now but with the crisis that we have today and with the degree that i am currently holding, i don’t think it is right for me to leave my job or maybe not now. I just have to bear with it first and I know God has plans for me in my future. After all, I’m just 23 years old, not too young but not too old either to stress myself with everything. If we only have some sort of investments like gold bars or other precious gems, then I’m sure i have nothing else to worry. Gold is actually a good investments since the value of it never fade and the older it gets, the higher the price you’ll receive if you sell them. I’m not sure if “hoarding” is a legal thing but that’s what they usually do. Those investors wait patiently until the value went high in the exchange market. But in reality, i don’t think we can have those gold bars not unless someone buried a chest of treasure under our house haha. Anyway, i should look forward to a better side especially now that i have heard that we will have an increase this coming March. What a relieving news right.